This has been a grueling adventure....
Although I know I have not kept up with the blog for the past two weeks, let me just say that I am busier now than I have been in a long time. I think I may even be busier than I was when I was taking full time masters classes... no scratch that... I am definitely busier than that. Fortunately, I am busier for all the right reasons. I have completely thrown myself into my work and I love my students. They keep me going and are so supportive of my diet efforts. When a student comes up and asks me to buy candy, another student will stop them and tell them not to tempt me. How adorable is that?? I still give them a dollar, but I tell them that they can do with the candy what they would like. Usually that means a friend ends up with extra. Its all for a good cause to support their clubs and sports.
Over the past 3 weeks I have managed to lose approximately 13 pounds and I am happy about that. I do not necessarily see it yet, but I feel much better than I have in the past so that has to be a good sign. Ricky and I have been eating much healthier and are more aware of the foods we purchase at the grocery store and we have not been eating out nearly as much. Usually eating out consists of one of us buy a salad of some sort to bring home.
Boot Camp is also going well. Now don't get me wrong, they kick my butt every night we go, but its all for the greater good in the process of achieving my goals. Unfortunately, this week did not go so well. Monday I managed to some how get a massive cramp that encircled my body causing me to almost fall over. I laid down on my back for a minute and then got right back up and finished the work out. I didn't feel like I did very well, but I did finish so that is a positive I suppose. After that incident, I wanted to totally nail it on Wednesday night, and I did. It was such a great workout, I felt wonderful after the fact. Unfortunately, going into Friday did not bode well for me personally. Friday morning I woke up feeling pretty awful. Whatever has been going around school managed to make it to my room and attack without warning. I had a blistering headache and felt achy for the majority of the day. I should have known this was coming because I almost lost my voice earlier int eh week, but apparently I chose to ignore it. So Yesterday when I arrived at Boot Camp I still felt bad, Ricky felt my head and said that I felt a bit warm, but I decided to stick it out because I really want to do well with this program (plus I am slightly stubborn). So I started the workout with everyone else. I was in tears most of the time due to my head throbbing, but I wasn't going to give up... until it happened. About 20 minutes into the workout, my head started throbbing and I couldn't see straight. I thought my head was going to fall off my shoulders. I sat down in tears holding my head and start pouring lukewarm water into a towel to try and alleviate any of the pain I could. It was horrible. I was so embarrassed and defeated that I cannot even begin to explain how it felt.
When I got home I felt pretty bad, but my fever had gone down. Ricky was kind enough to go out and get food from Publix so I didn't have to cook, but I still felt selfish. Ricky had to wake up at 1am to go to work and here I am needing all of the help. He only got 4 hours of sleep and I was the one that went to bed first. I still feel bad about that one.
As I sit here outside in my pjs letting Oliver do his thing in the backyard, I realize that my body rebelled against me yesterday and it was not that I was giving up, my body just said no. I also realized that I have the best husband on the planet who is willing to ignore the fact that he has to wake up at 1 in the morning and will still make sure I am ok. I couldn't ask for a better support system than that!!
Aside from going to see my students' work at the Maitland Art Festival this weekend, I am planning nothing but rest in order to fight off this illness. This way I can go to Boot Camp on Monday and show them that I am in this for life!
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